i saw him... and its so absurd!! (PETERPAN)

i browse the net lately.. and i dunno what depicts inside my head to view his profile.. then, i viewed him.. it was nothing.. i saw his picture, with his new girl friend, i know, i got over him... since he's out of my life.. his girl was pretty. i cant compete with her.. im pretty too..

last night, when im lying on my bed, the picture of him with his girl, pops out on my mind.. i really dont know.. i really have no idea at all...
he's a guy, that made me cried my eyes out.. now he's gone. out of the wind.,, flew away.. and tinkerbell took him.. because wendy let him flew.. he's peterpan after all, he brought me to places like its not really for reality.. he made me enjoy things, i love to do..

December is coming.. and so our memories is repeating itself.. our history..

i never knew that once in my life, i will find him,... the one who can make me smile even i dont like to. the guy that i didnt imagine to love me with all his heart.. he's one of a kind. i cant blame myself either on forcing our relationship to end that way..

we broke up,, and then back again.. and repeating over and over again.. oh! such a crime... i didnt realize..

im not hoping that soon.. he'll be back.. cuz i know.. tinkerbell have him.. i know they are happy now in their neverland.. flying against the wind, dancing, kissing passionately, loving each other..

he asked me once.. " why aint you answer those boys who are courting you??? i'll be back when im ready,, in the right time, and the right place.."
and i simply answered him back.. " i dont need you to be back.. you have your princess, andd im not answering those boys, coz im waiting for my prince charming to arrive.."

then... no messages at all..

we've gone so far in our relationship.. i cant seem to realize how it was ended.. a tragedy.. ;(



" BE HAPPY WITH HER RIGHT NOW, OK?? I WONT BE BACK.. I ONLY WANT US TO BE FRIENDS,, THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS "RIGHT TIME", CUZ WE ARE THE ONE WHO DECIDES FOR OURSELVES.. IN THE TIME THAT WE WANT TO" ..

BUT IM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU..


LOVE.
WENDY...

this is me..

Oh My gOsh, i Lost my pet.. ='(

its like losing someone that was once part of your life..

my pet cat.. omg..! his name is "ming" you know the feeling of your absolutely down, and you have nothing to cry on immediately.. to hug on.. when you need someone for you.. on the time you need someone the most. .
"ming" is always there.. i know he cant speak.. like us, humans.. all he can say is "meow" but behind those "meows" are the words.. " dont cry, i know im not a human, you can hug me, im always here for you.." i can fell it, whenever i cuddle him, hug him, put himinot my bed, and talking to him, ooMg! im not losing my mind.. he can feel my worries, my problems, my deepest downfalls, my frustrations, my everything..
he's better than a lover.. he's always there.. stress- freeing..""

i remember the time, back when i was a kid.. i cried all my eyes out.. not for a person.. but for my most loved, and adored cat.. i dont know why is it like that... its a terrible and strange feeling, emotion,.

this blog post seems to be "non-sense" but if you can just feel what i feelt, and feeling at this point of time.. you can say that " Oh! i realized.. this is how to love a pet, and art of letting it go.. "


bye for now..!

keep reading my posts.. for an update about me.. DEANNA ..


lovingly yours.. :)

just wanna share some thoughts of mine..

people are new at first, then after sometime when you get used to them, they are ordinary like others. they gonna hurt you once in a while.. but they will surely brought you up, when youre surely down.. bitches of insecurities want to tear you into pieces, but still.. they dont know that theyre burning their own houses just to get rid of a rat. people sometimes act like fools.. emo .. luvless.. in-love. but.. whatever they may be.. there's one thing bout them.. they are just being theirselves.. some are trying to prove something.. people are people.. but almost not equal.. others do not have what others do have.. people make sense out of love.. some cant speak what they want to.. they just dont know how to spit it out.. how to vomit those words out of their mouth.. but for some instance.. we spit it out not in the proper place. and we didnt realize that someone might get hurt. that someone, might dont want to hear not because that person dont like you, but becuse, that person, dont want to get completely fall in love with you. they just dont want you to get involve in their messy crazy life.. i get so very stupid on the thing i really urge to get.. im really obssess for it... really.. yet.. plans have made.. plans.. plans.. plans.. just plans.. then.. when the thing is coming.. nearer.. and nearer... closer than ever to the reality.. then ... it disappears like a bubble in the air..i really wanna spit bitch words outta my mouth.. but what i did realize is.. i dont deseerve that thing.. i dint worth to have it.. once is enough.. so grab it.. make the most of it.. you really dont know if that thing will be back again, or will repeat itself over and over again.. oh! it just sucks! i hate it! but still.. ! im really onto myself.. i dont really deserve it.. really! are you confused of me, and what makes my life this way.. well.. im just me .. trying everything to make the most of it.. cuz im just a person.. but a girl whom someone is afraid to lose.. just be yourself.. you cant pleaSE everybody.. just do whatever you want to do.. whatever may comes into your way.. face it! and you'll just see... BAM! you embrace yourself, as you embrace the world!!

hey bloggers!

itz me deanna! new to yah world! well.. welcome me!