just wanna share some thoughts of mine..

people are new at first, then after sometime when you get used to them, they are ordinary like others. they gonna hurt you once in a while.. but they will surely brought you up, when youre surely down.. bitches of insecurities want to tear you into pieces, but still.. they dont know that theyre burning their own houses just to get rid of a rat. people sometimes act like fools.. emo .. luvless.. in-love. but.. whatever they may be.. there's one thing bout them.. they are just being theirselves.. some are trying to prove something.. people are people.. but almost not equal.. others do not have what others do have.. people make sense out of love.. some cant speak what they want to.. they just dont know how to spit it out.. how to vomit those words out of their mouth.. but for some instance.. we spit it out not in the proper place. and we didnt realize that someone might get hurt. that someone, might dont want to hear not because that person dont like you, but becuse, that person, dont want to get completely fall in love with you. they just dont want you to get involve in their messy crazy life.. i get so very stupid on the thing i really urge to get.. im really obssess for it... really.. yet.. plans have made.. plans.. plans.. plans.. just plans.. then.. when the thing is coming.. nearer.. and nearer... closer than ever to the reality.. then ... it disappears like a bubble in the air..i really wanna spit bitch words outta my mouth.. but what i did realize is.. i dont deseerve that thing.. i dint worth to have it.. once is enough.. so grab it.. make the most of it.. you really dont know if that thing will be back again, or will repeat itself over and over again.. oh! it just sucks! i hate it! but still.. ! im really onto myself.. i dont really deserve it.. really! are you confused of me, and what makes my life this way.. well.. im just me .. trying everything to make the most of it.. cuz im just a person.. but a girl whom someone is afraid to lose.. just be yourself.. you cant pleaSE everybody.. just do whatever you want to do.. whatever may comes into your way.. face it! and you'll just see... BAM! you embrace yourself, as you embrace the world!!