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" I will be on the pages soon!!! I will make sure of that…"

" I will be on the pages soon!!! I will make sure of that…"

I really wanted to be a model.. Really.. Super. As in!!  And im making my way to it.

It’s a desire and a dream in my heart  that wants to burst and will do everything just to have all these dreams in my heart.

Im an aspiring model, yet ive realized that its hard to be what you wanna be

But with a strong determination, and a brave heart no one can stop me from doing and getting what I love.

As ive said on my previous blog, god has its own time for everything so I must keep the passion burning and make my dreams alive just to make sure that I am ready when God gave me the time for what I want.

I love posing for camera, im a certified camwhore..

So no one could ever stop me from doing it..

It only goes to show that I am willing to sacrifice anything just to reach all my dreams and making them come true.

See?? I have a brave heart !

I will just smile, wait for the right time and pose! :))))

100 truths about ME.. :)) -got it from my fb's note.. :D

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: water
2. Last phone call: in my phone
3. Last text message: my couzin
4. Last song you listened to: love stood still..
5. Last time you cried: yesterday.. :(

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: yep.. on a single day.. hahaha
7. Been cheated on: yup..haii
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope..haha
9. Lost someone special: yep:'(
10. Been depressed: nope..!
11. Been drunk and threw up: hahaha.. yeaa!! *gross
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12 pink
13.white
14.brown

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: yea..
16. Fallen out of love: yup.. since a year
17. Laughed until you cried: lol.. yea.. weird though
18. Met someone who changed you: yes.. HIM.. :(
19. Found out who your true friends were: hmm.. kind of..
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yeah...lol.. them@_@
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: ?! nah!! dts..
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: hard to count...
23. How many kids do you want to have: couple of kids.. :D
24. Do you have any pets: yep.. a guinea pig, a cat, dogs.. rawwrr!
25. Do you want to change your name: nope..i love it;) soo much!
26. What did you do for your last birthday: party!! yea.. :) party till we drop.
27. What time did you wake up today: around past 9am..
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: facebooking, multiplying.. :D
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: graduate! and pose!! hahaha
30. Last time you saw your Mother: now.. eerr.. hahaha
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: My mistakes
32. What are you listening to right now: love stood still.. hmmm
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: ye.. tom.. LOL
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: him! how could he??
35. Most visited webpage: strictly facebook, multiply, twitter.. XD
36. Whats your real name: DEANNA FAE SALLAO VISPERAS..
37. Nicknames: dheanz, anne, deanna, den, pink
38. Relationship Status: Single...
39. Zodiac sign: sheep
40. Male or female?: Female
41. Elementary?: done.:D
42. High School?: done! :D
43. College?: still pushing.. XDD
44. Hair colour: burgundy mix of hazel nut brown
45. Long/short: shaggy-ishly long
46. Height: about 5'4"
47. Do you have a crush on someone?:yes! haha..saw hi mat school yesterday! :D
48: What do you like about yourself?:being just ME, strong, forthright and cool.. :D
49. Piercings: yep.. 3 on the right ear and 2 on the other
50. Tattoos: nope..looking forward having it
51. Righty or lefty: superb lefty..

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery:last last summer
53. First piercing: When I was a baby
54. First best friend: my parents and god:)
55. First sport you joined: volleyball.. haha
56. First vacation: at SUBIC.. yea..
58. First pair of trainers: err..dun have..

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: none..
60. Drinking: darn cold juice..
61. I'm about to: drink red juice..
62. Listening to: too much love will kill you.. haha
63. Waiting for: my next shoot.. :p

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: yep.. a couple of it
65. Get Married?: not yet.. looking forward to it.. but not for now.. XD

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: lips.. i have a almost perfect lips.. haha (ehem!)
68. Hugs or kisses: kisses
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: arms..haha
73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive..
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship..
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: haha.. *s
77. Drank hard liquor: yea! haha.. drink to death
78. Lost glasses: nope.. just broke one
79. Sex on first date: haha.. shit! of course not!l
80. Broken someone's heart: yea.. he deserves it.. LOL
82. Been arrested: haha.. im not a party crasher.. XD
83. Turned someone down: yea..
84. Cried when someone died: of course...
85. Fallen for a friend?: hmm.. not yet

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: definitely YES!! XD
87. Miracle: yea..
88. Love at first sight: haha.. always!
89. Heaven: Yeah.....:}
90. Santa Claus: when i was young.. not when i caught my MOM putting good on my santa socks.. :)
91. Kiss on the first date: if u REALLY love each other..
92. Angels: YEAH!!!!!

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: hmm.. yes.. afraid of bad karma
95. Did you sing today?: Yes.. haha, so it pours
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: yep. HIM.. i said he deserves it
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: until i got on elementary ed.. :))
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: new year..
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: nope.. i believe in LURV.. <3
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: isn't that wat i'm supposed to do?haha..but its effin fun! :D

just saw.. "REMEMBER ME" a while ago..

its been quite a while since i dont blog on any movies i have seen..
maybe the movie was so boring that after an hour i can totally forget it,
or maybe the movie was so touching that im sobbing and cant recall what had happened..

the story goes....

it was a bit rainy lately..
and i decided to stay at home.. grab some chips.. a drinks and sit on the sofa and watch the movie "REMEMBER ME"...

it was a story of a boy that will do everything just for her sister's and girlfriends sake..
a boy that would fight for everything he thinks is right..
and will grab some fire extinguisher and throw it outside the window just to protect her sister from some bullying sh*ts..

aww.. it was very touching..
where i can relate when im having a hard time with either my friends or my family..
gettin wasted to death..
and makin my friends laugh whenever im soo soo tipsy that my face is darned tired of alcohols.. hahaha
well.. thats what teens life..

anyways..

im still hoping that everything would be better..

A Father's Day Blog Special (to all the Pap's out there!)

*Happy Fathers Day to all the loving father's out there.. :)

before..

i really have no idea what was like a father's role into a child..
i admit.. i had my daddylo.. my grandpup..
he gave me everything i need and i want..
he thought me all those stuffs that a kid should know about life that only a father can teach..
he never, ever, ever, ever uttered my dad's name in my face ( in front of me)..

my friend knows that my weaknesses is seeing a kid hugging his father..

cant join.. cant cope up with their "Dad-stuff stories.."

wheew!!

even though i havent seen my dad..
im soo soo happy that he gave me the life i didnt expect to have..
and even though he never sit by my side.. or taps my back whenever i dont feel like ok..

i mean it.. i have the so-called..
guilt.madness.

i never experienced sitting on my pap's lap when i was a kid.
or going into the mall, with 2 ice creams on my hand..
or biking with my pap..

of course my mom made my life complete even though its literally and obviously NOT..

i wish i had a DAD, a PAP.. that can sing or play guitar with me..
someone whom i can lean on or cry on whenever some big fat *** lier broke my heart..
someone who can call me princess..
and someone who will be conservative whenever im going out for a date..

of course EVERYTHING was only a dream..

if ever i will see him someday..

i do not know if i would slap his face.. and broke his a** off.
or hug him and slap his face then put a big smile..


awwww...


to my Dad:

happy father's day! thank you for giving me this life..
even though i am soo soo mad at you.. but then.. father is still a father.. :)

what can i do.. :))

*PS: to all the loving fathers out there.. HAPPY HAPPY FATHERS DAY.!
please.. and please.. dont forget to show your love to your children every single day..
if you could spend the best of your time with them.. do it..
coz theyre (kids) just so lucky having a loving father like you.. :)


i wish i had one too.. :(


its soo ok.. :)



*SMILE.. ^ keepsafe

GOSH!! i wanna have a NEW BOYFRIEND again.. :'(

-yung irerespeto ko..

-yung papahalagahan ako..

- yung ipapakilala ko sa family ko.

-yung aalagaan ako..

-yung kayag maghintay...

-yung mamahalin ako ng doble pa sa sarili nya..

-yung sasamahan ako, malaman lang niyang safe ako..

-yung hindi ako papabayaan...

-yung papagalitan ako pag "wasted" na ko dahil sa barkada..

-yung hindi magagalit dahil may shoot ako..

-yung handang magpabasa sa ulan kasama ako..

-yung dadalawin ako sa bahay bago ako matulog para dalhan ako ng ice cream , when im craving for it..

-yung gagawin lahat, mapasaya lang ako during my blue days..

-yung susunduin ako sa bahay ko para magsimba..

-yung sabay kaming magcecelbrate ng new year at christmas kasama ang pamilya niya at pamilya ko..

-yung iiyakon ko at iiyakan din ako..

-at higit sa lahat..

-yung makakatanggap sa buong pagkatao ko.. :))


*namimiz ko na magkaboyfriend.. :(

off to bed.. :) (friends, emotions, happiness)

i need a rest..

a complete rest.. :(

i love this day so big, so huge that my heart wants to pop..

im with my friends again..

(billiards, bowling, dinner, frenchfries, laughs, giggles, tears)

mixed emotions.. but ended up soo soo great..

maybe i can say that...

2nd time is sweeter than the 1st one..


_off to bed now...

*smiling while im asleep.. <3


*deanna.... now SIGNING OFF,:D

start it right?? or start it not???? (my blog about this up coming presidential election...)

its been a couple of weeks since everyone havent heard any of my noise on my multiply or on my facebook account.. (due to my OJT)
harsh.. its sooo tiring.. but anyways.. let me talk about this up coming intense election..

*1st of all..
- i swore a word to my friend that i would post a blog about the said matter..
let me do it this way..

*** everyone who is on the position today is now hiding every dirt they did and trying to sphere-out our head..

*** little do they know that friendship is more important than busting and boasting each others goodness about their lives..

*** last is,, half of them are liars...
(for me)

* im living here in phil for my entire life now,, for 18 years..
well.. my life is better,, and a lot better than other people out there who run out of food..

im speaking of poverty..

when i was in SM naga..
i saw a handicapped child who was extending his arms to me..
of course expecting for a little help..

i have this cake supposed to be a gift to a friend of mine nearby..

sooo.. i gave the cake to the poor little boy..

i secretly yawn.. cuz i was secretly crying.. :(

i was deeply touched..

how stupid that the government doesnt feel any of those sufferings felt by our fellas..

now.. im deeply frustrated..


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slogans... the question is ...

should we trust them??

ar they for real???

do they just did the debate for the benefit of their name and their credibility???



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i wanna tell you all that no one will ever extend an effort without getting what they need first..

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di niyo lang nahahalata.. :))




**** ikaw ba ang simula?????

love or betrayal?

after a year of lonesome.. here comes �the happiness..�

im soo soo happy today.. :)�

im with him.. and i feel so soo comfortable having him..�

shit.. darn this feeling..�

he made me so happy, he made me laugh out really loud and no hesitation of showing my true me..�

waaaa!!!!

i wanna shout!!�

(for now, i dont care)

(for now, i just wanna be happy)

(for now, i feel so sorry to those who'll be hurt)

(for now, im just smiling)

(and thats just for now)

savoring the moment..�

is this a betrayal? or its destiny's fault?

(pakialam ko!!! )

masaya ko eh.. selfish na kung selfish..�

*sorry ate claire .. :(

love or betrayal?

after a year of lonesome.. here comes �the happiness..�

im soo soo happy today.. :)�

im with him.. and i feel so soo comfortable having him..�

shit.. darn this feeling..�

he made me so happy, he made me laugh out really loud and no hesitation of showing my true me..�

waaaa!!!!

i wanna shout!!�

(for now, i dont care)

(for now, i just wanna be happy)

(for now, i feel so sorry to those who'll be hurt)

(for now, im just smiling)

(and thats just for now)

savoring the moment..�

is this a betrayal? or its destiny's fault?

(pakialam ko!!! )

masaya ko eh.. selfish na kung selfish..�

*sorry ate claire .. :(

unfinised answer..? :)

Hunting for love never brings the right person, rather it only creates longing and unhappiness..
so my thought for this day is to "Do not settle for anybody just to have someone" ..:))

*smiling..
:))) XD

i woke up smiling.. :))

its 12:31 in the morning.. well.. im still awake as usual.. insomnia.. i stopped taking sleeping pills a couple of months ago.. it bothers me (a lot!) .. now.. i need it.. ugh! i need to sleep.. i need to rest.. but i cant.. well.. who can sleep with thoughts flooding on your head.. super unanswered questions.. floating question marks.. ugh! maybe its just me, who has the answers to all of those stupid question marks.. :)�

do you believe that dreams are true?? i still need a proof.. (darn)

i dream about a certain person but with blurred face.. hahahaha.. but i can recognize his features.. but its totally not clear..�

i woke up smiling.. (wondering what my dream is all about)

(*as in nakasmile after ko magising) LOL weird noh..�

hahaha

and of course my day was sooo great..�

*nagtataka...�

(goodnight.)

^__^

smile.. :))�

who said that college life is that easy??

i never thought that college life will be this hard..
but on the other side.. im enjoying every second of it..
were on the peak of our studies.. (thesis) ugh.. the hardest yet the most enjoyable part..
hmp..
thinking soo hard.. sleepless nights (party.study) haha

hoping we can make it! :))

if your unhappy.. well.. lets just do the reverse side.. be happy and enjoy life.. that's what i have learned..

college life.. well.. what can you say??

Love this some sparks of wisdom sooooo much!:))

Dream what you want to dream;
Go where you want to go:
Be what you want to be,
Because you have only one life
\And one chance to do all the things
You want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
Enough trials to make you strong,
Enough sorrow to keep you human and
Enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily
Have the best of everything;
They just make the most of
Everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always
Be based on a forgotten past;
You can't go forward in life until
You let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying
And everyone around you was smiling
Live your life so at the end
You're the one who is smiling and everyone
Around you is crying.

- Anonymous

Love this some sparks of wisdom sooooo much!:))

Dream what you want to dream;
Go where you want to go:
Be what you want to be,
Because you have only one life
\And one chance to do all the things
You want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
Enough trials to make you strong,
Enough sorrow to keep you human and
Enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily
Have the best of everything;
They just make the most of
Everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always
Be based on a forgotten past;
You can't go forward in life until
You let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying
And everyone around you was smiling
Live your life so at the end
You're the one who is smiling and everyone
Around you is crying.

- Anonymous

Love this some sparks of wisdom sooooo much!:))

Dream what you want to dream;
Go where you want to go:
Be what you want to be,
Because you have only one life
\And one chance to do all the things
You want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
Enough trials to make you strong,
Enough sorrow to keep you human and
Enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily
Have the best of everything;
They just make the most of
Everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always
Be based on a forgotten past;
You can't go forward in life until
You let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying
And everyone around you was smiling
Live your life so at the end
You're the one who is smiling and everyone
Around you is crying.

- Anonymous

Love this some sparks of wisdom sooooo much!:))

Dream what you want to dream;
Go where you want to go:
Be what you want to be,
Because you have only one life
\And one chance to do all the things
You want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
Enough trials to make you strong,
Enough sorrow to keep you human and
Enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily
Have the best of everything;
They just make the most of
Everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always
Be based on a forgotten past;
You can't go forward in life until
You let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying
And everyone around you was smiling
Live your life so at the end
You're the one who is smiling and everyone
Around you is crying.

- Anonymous

love.hearts.love.question?.none

What can the love in my soul be compared to another wonderful soul which is so far and yet so close of my self?
What can this symbiosis between two souls can be?
What can love be when you feel you cannot sleep at night, that every drop of dew becomes a crystal in your heart, when every breeze of wind has magical meanings?
What can love be when you feel that you want nothing more in this world that to be with the soul you love?
But what can love be in other transcendental realities? What about our souls?
Are our souls a waterfall, a true Niagara or a smile, a flirt of an angel? Are our souls a mere mood of a fairy or a lightening in a summer rain?
Our souls could be all of this and much more. But what really happens in that transcendental reality when we feel we are truly in love, that we love so much that it hurts? That the air in the room is unbreathable, that the sentimental, spiritual or physical distances kill us? What happens when dawn find us sadder than ever, looking for an excuse or an argument for the person we love so much, our Great Love? What are all thses? What are the looks lost in the desert horizons of unfulfilment or those in the eyes that deeply loose each other in the others inside the souls?

PRINCE i'll miss you..:'(

everything doesnt last forever..
even that most little yet important thing that gave you joy for a quite time will unexpectedly leave you at time when youre not ready..

i hate this feeling..
feeling of loss grief and sorrow.:(

im really crying soo hard.. *sobs

i'll miss him so much..

the sound of him when i open the door asking for food..
the way he nimbles..
on how he giggles when i play with him.

its almost over a month when i hang out with him, in my most happy and sad time.

he's been my best friend for almot 2 months.

im really crying.. i need a hug from him..

when he was born, i got the feeling of having someone to be with, even though hes not human and dont have an ability to comfort like a human..
I got the feeling of joy.. bright days.. and no more lonely mondays.

i wish that he's with gods' angels and grace..
i will miss you sooo much PRINCE..

thanks for coming into our lives..

i dont know how can i get over this feeling..
i made this blog with tears..:(

im soooooooooo sad..

this is how i am attached to them.. especially to him.. my pet..

i love you soooooooo much prince!!!!!
you'll always stay in my heart:(

i feel better now..

oMG! (sigh)

last year was like hell!
hell yeah!
and im burnin up.. my heart was burnin soo hot.. it really wanna burst..

and now..

everything was fine..

haters became losers..
devils turned angels.

and even though they hurt me so much with those nasty intrigues and issues..
now i stand out. and im fine.. :))

loving this feeling..

" I LOVE LISTENING TO LIES WHEN IN FACT I EXACTLY KNOW THE TRUTH"

lesson learned:

Dont trust anyone TOO MUCH..

:)